Saturday, January 22, 2011
Diary of a Crazy Christian Teenage Girl...God Help Us All!
Gah! So I haven't posted in a while, my apologies for like my 3 readers lol :) I appreciate every single one of you
So much seems to have happened in such a minuscule amount of time, but I'm beginning to see that's usually how life works. There is no warning, no anticipatory period were you are allowed to gather your things together and run for the hills, it's usually in the midst of what you might label "perfection" that your life is turned completely upside down.
I have no great story to tell, no great moral lesson, simply words. My words, to share. Every day I learn more and more just how important my words are. While people usually focus mainly on people's actions ( which they are completely right in doing so) let us no forget or under estimate the power that words can have, not only the words themselves, but the tone, and mannerism in which they are presented. Be careful with what you say and how, it's surprising how something that seems so tiny and trivial can have such drastic effects on people and sometimes even the course of someone's life. ( yes it's a bit dramatic, but also very true)
Along with my words comes something else, my ability to listen. Not necessarily my ability to lend someone an ear when they need one ( even though contrary to popular belief I can shut up long enough to help someone who needs or wants it) but rather the ability to truly listen when words of advice are being uttered, even when I'm not the one they are being spoken to. Yes, I can see the weird implication that I go around eavesdropping into people's conversations seeking random words of wisdom, and yes I realize that, that probably wasn't the best way to put it, but maybe this will help. Keep an ear open, try to learn from those around you, those who have already traveled the path you're on now. The amount of mistakes you could avoid are truly astounding when you think about it, and when you lay you're stupid pride aside and head the council of people who know more than you, because guess what? They have that knowledge for a reason!
My last comment will be on how sometimes God makes no sense....at all! It seems that I find myself more and more questioning Him, not in the bad way, but rather in the way that goes a little something like..."why the heck do you like me so much?! You see all the stupid things I do on a daily basis, some that are even done on purpose or out of spite! Why would you bless me, and start me on the path to something that I've wanted all my life? Why the heck are You so awesome! ...GAH!"...something like that. God has a weird way of view people, and while I'm thankful for it every day of my life I just don't get it sometimes. And you want to know a secret?...That's ok. You won't always know what God's doing, actually you probably never know what He's doing until He's done, but that's part of the beauty of it. You learn to trust, even if you're like me and swore you'd never trust any one or anything. You learn and grow to accept and Love God for His ways, because let's face it, His way is the Only Way that will ever truly work. He's the only thing that will ever truly work, and it is knowing this that will enable you to start believing and trust in other people, in other ideas, and before you know it, your not who you once were, and because God was behind it, you'll have no idea how you got there. ;D
Posted by Monica at 9:04 PM