Life's a Highway... No Really it is!

I came up with this analogy in my English class ( when I was totally paying attention to what I was suppose to be doing)so please bear with me...

okay, so we've all heard those feel good saying about giving God control, and how we need to handover the steering wheel of our life to God because we can't do it on our own right? Right. Yet with that beautiful nugget of truth running around, there are still so many people who are discouraged because they feel that even when then give control over to God, nothing seems to happen, or things still come out all twisted up. Is it God's fault then?...HAHA! no -.-. It's Ours.

SO many times we tell God to take control of our lives and call the shots, yet we don't mean it. Many people think that's what they do when they confess Jesus Christ to be their Lord and Savior, give God all of the control. Salvation is the first step, telling God "hey I believe in you and I acknowledge that I need you because I can't do it on my own". So pretty much with salvation, your simply letting God get into the car of your life. We then need to take or new found relationship with God a step further, and tell Him " hey, you know what? We've been hanging out for a while now, and I feel like I trust you enough to drive without crashing, so why don't you take the wheel?, I'm sure you'll do a way better job than me!". When we hand over the wheel it needs to be out of complete and total trust in God that He will help us and lead us the right path for us.

But WE need to be the ones to hand it over to God, He won't take it from us by force, it's not in His nature. It's when we spend time with Him and learn to truly trust Him and His plans that we are able to fully let go of the wheel and not be annoying backseat drivers anymore.

The point of this whole road trip analysis is that When you ask God to Help you, you need to really mean it, you need to ask Him without a plan B, or C. You can't be praying to God for help, when your flesh has already come up with a plan just in case "God doesn't come true" because in that way of thinking, you've already decided that you can't trust God, hence the plan B. Why would God Bless pride? especially Pride that is belittling His power? He wouldn't. He'd simply say " you aren't really asking for my help, so I won't give it to you". Not to say that He'll turn away from us, He'll simply let us do it on our own,the way deep down in our hearts we were already going to in the first place.

God loves you,never doubt that, but He won't impose His plans for your life on you, you need to sincerely want Him to work in you, it's the only when you've completely gotten rid of your way of thinking and all your plans A-Z that He'll do the great things He wants to do through you Honestly seek Him and trust Him and you'll be amazed and the wonders He( and He alone)can achieve on your Journey :)

Hope You Guys Have a Great Week!

Diary of a Crazy Christian Teenage Girl...God Help Us All!

Gah! So I haven't posted in a while, my apologies for like my 3 readers lol :) I appreciate every single one of you

So much seems to have happened in such a minuscule amount of time, but I'm beginning to see that's usually how life works. There is no warning, no anticipatory period were you are allowed to gather your things together and run for the hills, it's usually in the midst of what you might label "perfection" that your life is turned completely upside down.

I have no great story to tell, no great moral lesson, simply words. My words, to share. Every day I learn more and more just how important my words are. While people usually focus mainly on people's actions ( which they are completely right in doing so) let us no forget or under estimate the power that words can have, not only the words themselves, but the tone, and mannerism in which they are presented. Be careful with what you say and how, it's surprising how something that seems so tiny and trivial can have such drastic effects on people and sometimes even the course of someone's life. ( yes it's a bit dramatic, but also very true)

Along with my words comes something else, my ability to listen. Not necessarily my ability to lend someone an ear when they need one ( even though contrary to popular belief I can shut up long enough to help someone who needs or wants it) but rather the ability to truly listen when words of advice are being uttered, even when I'm not the one they are being spoken to. Yes, I can see the weird implication that I go around eavesdropping into people's conversations seeking random words of wisdom, and yes I realize that, that probably wasn't the best way to put it, but maybe this will help. Keep an ear open, try to learn from those around you, those who have already traveled the path you're on now. The amount of mistakes you could avoid are truly astounding when you think about it, and when you lay you're stupid pride aside and head the council of people who know more than you, because guess what? They have that knowledge for a reason!

My last comment will be on how sometimes God makes no sense....at all! It seems that I find myself more and more questioning Him, not in the bad way, but rather in the way that goes a little something like..."why the heck do you like me so much?! You see all the stupid things I do on a daily basis, some that are even done on purpose or out of spite! Why would you bless me, and start me on the path to something that I've wanted all my life? Why the heck are You so awesome! ...GAH!"...something like that. God has a weird way of view people, and while I'm thankful for it every day of my life I just don't get it sometimes. And you want to know a secret?...That's ok. You won't always know what God's doing, actually you probably never know what He's doing until He's done, but that's part of the beauty of it. You learn to trust, even if you're like me and swore you'd never trust any one or anything. You learn and grow to accept and Love God for His ways, because let's face it, His way is the Only Way that will ever truly work. He's the only thing that will ever truly work, and it is knowing this that will enable you to start believing and trust in other people, in other ideas, and before you know it, your not who you once were, and because God was behind it, you'll have no idea how you got there. ;D

By Faith, NOT By Sight

As I was flipping through my channels yesterday I accidentally stumbled upon this movie Lifetime was giving called "The 19th Wife". The movie takes place in a very secluded town in Utah where a group of very orthodox Mormons live, and the story starts off with a murder in the town and the wrongful imprisonment of a wife. I personally loved the movie because at the end the heroine finds the courage to leave, and take her daughter out of that horrible environment (frankly the entire concept of polygamy made me want to throw up, I honestly can understand how you could share your husband willingly with someone else, but anyways...). As I was watching the plot unfold before me there was a repeating theme I saw emerge. Whenever something about their faith was questioned, or debated the only answer any of the members of the sect could give was that " The prophet said it's that way, and the prophet is the voice of God". Look I'm ll for the gift of prophesy, and being used by God, but this was disgusting. These people believed every word that came out of this greedy, twisted, evil man's mouth, they accepted every sentence as the truth no questions asked! All I could do was think to myself how dumb could these people be? He's human for Pete's sake, his fallibleness was encoded in his DNA. Though God can restore you and make you whole, you do not in and of yourself become perfect. These people had such complete and total faith in someone who was only interested in benefiting and glorifying himself, and the last thing that was on his mind was these people's best interests,or God's Word.


The word faith is a funny paradox. When we think of someone's faith we think of what someone believes in, a fact or idea that some one holds to be completely true, but if we look at the definition of this wonderful word we don't quite find exactly what we expect to.The word faith ( as defined by dictionary.com) is a belief that is not based on proof, in other words it's something that you believe to be true, but have no way to completely prove it beyond a shadow of a doubt.

These people had faith in a man, and that was their ultimate down fall. They placed their entire world in the palms of a sinner ( we're all sinners, all imperfect, and all unworthy) who really couldn't do much but make things worse. Many times we put our faith in stupid things just as these poor souls did. We become deceived by the promise of perfection, or happiness, or wealth and we turn and run to the things that will let us down time after time. There are so many important decisions in life that a person has to make, each one difficult, each one with the power to alter your life forever. My question for you is where does your faith lie? Where do you run to when you need to make an important decision, where is it that you finally place your trust? Does it lie in an imperfect human(all humans are imperfect by the way, not one of us has the right to even consider the possibility that one day we might be able to get to a level near perfection),in possessions,in your relationships, in your self? While most of those things are great to be around, or even be a part of, none of it will ever lead you in the best direction for you.None of those things loves you enough to deny everything it has to see you be happy.

God is the one thing in this universe that you can always count on. He is the one constant thing that is always there. No matter how messed up you think your life is right now, or how much chaos has infiltrated your soul, He's always there. He's always there to pick up the pieces, He's always there to put you back together, He's always there with a super cool batman ban-aid to put on all your bumps and bruises (He also has the cool neon band-aids too). The point is that HE IS UNFAILING. He's God, He is the very definition of perfection.It only makes sense that you'd put your faith in the one thing you know will never let you down...right?

Silly Humans!....Plans are for God (yes I tried to use the trix slogan)

You know when you have those days where all you want to do is stay in bed and blast your music? It's not because you're tired, or sick you just don't feel well, emotionally, spiritually,and you just want to bury yourself so deep into your sheets that when you finally emerge on the other side, you're in a completely different place, away from you're worries, anxieties, doubts,fears and pretty much anything that will drain the life energy from you. Well that was how I felt this morning. =)

I'm not gonna complain in this post, I thought I might try something new. There are so many things in life that should make us want to cry, poverty, hatred, abandonment, disease, suffering and so many of the other horrors that are out there. While I might not be too happy with the direction in which my life is heading right now, I have no reason to complain, I have a home,cloths, food, friends, family, and my books, I have so much , while others have so little that it should be a crime. Think about all the things we take for granted in our lives; paved roads, cars/transportation,clean water,air conditioning,TV,radio,internet,pets,family, friends,the opportunity to worship freely, so many blessings, yet we still find time in our lives to complain. Why is that? Why is it that we can't just be satisfied with what we have? I'm seriously asking, because I myself don't know. I have so much, yet when one thing doesn't go according to my plans, I lose it. God will only tell you No, if He has something better for you right? well then why am I so bent on wanting what I want? Why am I worrying so much?

God doesn't need my help ( that's for sure), so why do I insist on constantly pointing out what I want? He already knows what I want, but most importantly He knows what I need. While for the time being it might be hard for me to move on, and deal with the situation at hand, my wounds will soon heal, and my heart will be again, that I'm about 85% certain of.=D
My question however is not if I'll be ok, but why do I want my way? Pride, and selfishness I'm sure are reasons, but I'm trying to look at it from a broader spectrum, why do human beings insist on trying to show God how to do His work? In what point in time did some ridiculous human decide they knew more than God? Honestly, our stupidity never ceases to amaze me! ( and I say that with all the Love in the world)If you have any theories, please share, I'd love to understand your take on this matter :)

The Dream of a Dreamer

Sometimes in life we have expectations, or rather hopes I should say. No matter how ridiculous it might seem to other people, you are set in your desires, your mind has been made up, and no matter how things might look like you know(hope) that everything will turn out ok in the end. Life however, being the beautiful force that it is, sometimes has plans of it's own. My question is how do you deal with the disappointment? How do you deal with the feeling you have every morning when you wake up that tells you " good job you've made the same mistake for the billionth time!" How do you find strength to stare that person, or situation in the eye every day and live through all the you're going through, how do you pretend that part of your dream hasn't come crumbling down, with you still inside? With God's help I suppose, but I know it won't be an instant thing, everyone will tell you the same thing, just take it one day at a time, it'll get better, but does it really? Or do you just simply become a better actor? Blah, I really don't like life sometimes

The Cowardly Lion

Have you ever seen the Wizard of Oz? There are five main characters, Dorthy, the Tinman, The Scarecrow, Toto, and the Cowardly Lion. Sitting in My speech class I found my self having a very strong connection with the latter of that list, as we started talking about speech topics the obvious big controversial issue came up. As we discussed them in class I was pretty good about defending my point of view in a biblical and loving way,until we got to the topic of gay marriage. Now I completely understand that is it unbiblical and it's wrong,but when asked who didn't agree with it, my hand stayed by my side and I let the opportunity to defend the Truth pass me by. When I had realized that the reason why my hand hadn't gone up was because I was scared of the reaction I would get from my classmates I started to cry. Not in front of the class of course that would have just made everything worse, but in the ladies room after class. Up to that point I was fairly confident that I had a pretty good grip on my faith,and that when called to I would be able to defend it, but I completely pulled a Peter! I don't know what I'm going to do,I feel like a failure and while I know I'm not expected to be perfect I should at least me able to do this. I'm scared. I don't know what I'll do next time I'm put in this position,I don't even think I can deal with a next time. I'm just venting rght now, I'm typing this on my itouch in the middle of my church's wenesday service (yes I should me paying attention but as you can tell from my story I can't think right today so...) I'm that out of it right now, I guess all I could ask is to be kept in your prayers, I'm pretty sure this won't be my last cowardly lion experience.

Provers 31

" She is closed with strength and dignity, and she laughs with no fear of the future"- Proverbs 31:25

Hello! Well it's back to school week for me, and I have to say I'm looking forward to it. The verse that I posted at the top came to me literally like a minute ago, along with the realization that even though tomorrow is the first day of a new school, there is a 95% chance I will get lost, I have to start taking AP Calc, and I'm taking on a very heavy work load this year...I'm not scared.(I'm a tad bit nervous, but it doesn't really count)I'm confident in the place God has me in right now, I'm happy. It's kind of a weird feeling for me, but I like it,I like the fact that for once I'm not freaking out over everything, or really anything.

The Proverbs 31 lady used to sincerely bug me. It was nothing personal,she just bugged me in the same way June Clever used to bug me, she was too perfect. I felt she as if she was setting an unreachable goal for the rest of woman kind, or rather setting us up to fail. It's wasn't until very recently that I realized she wasn't concerned about how her actions would affect the rest of human kind, she was concerned on whether or not her actions were pleasing towards God. That was her only goal, she was following the blue print originally designed for woman. She wasn't naturally perfect on her own, I'm sure she wasn't born in total perfection, I highly doubt she reached perfection at all in her life time, but what she did achieve was something much more worth while. She won the approval of a beautiful loving God. God didn't love her because she was perfect, neither did her children nor her husband, she was loved and admired because she was made perfect through and because of Him.

I hope this serves as a reminder that we shouldn't seek perfection, it's a
pointless pursuit, what we should seek however is the approval of our Wonderful Father. The pursuit of Perfection is something I struggle with a lot, but as I see from Mrs.P31,I've been pursuing the completely wrong thing.God doesn't need me to be perfect, in fact He KNOWS I'm not perfect, and I'll never be, but He loves me anyways. He's set rules for me, and just wants me to do my absolute best in keeping them. That's the beauty of Him, He knows our faults and weaknesses( psalm 139), yet He adores us anyways...crazy right? Don't get caught up with perfection, with being the perfect bible scholar, or with being the perfect verse reciter, or the perfect husband, or wife, because you'll never reach your goal. You'll spend the rest of your life chasing ghosts,and winding up with nothing but emptiness, and misery. Focus on the standard God has called us to, focus on making Him happy and everything else will fall into place, that's His promise, and He can't lie.
"But seek first the Kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things shall be added to you"- Matthew 6:33 <3